Letting Go: Training for Loch Ness

I’ve been enamored with the idea of deliberate practice since being introduced to it in Angela Duckworth’s book ‘Grit’. I wrote about my revelations on Grit after my 25 mile swim from Newport, Vermont to Magog, Quebec in 2019: Deliberate Practice – Intrepid Water.

What I focus on with my swimmers and in my own practice, I have called many things over the years: “technique focus training”, “focus training”, “strategic swimming”, at the end of the day the goal is deliberate practice.

What is deliberate practice? Atomic Habits author, James Clear, says, “Deliberate practice refers to a special type of practice that is purposeful and systematic. While regular practice might include mindless repetitions, deliberate practice requires focused attention and is conducted with the specific goal of improving performance.

Clear goes on to site examples of phenomenal practitioners of baseball, golf, basketball, as well as artists, inventors, and musical composers. He describes the importance of chunking skills and practicing each with focused attention. (This may sound familiar to my swimmers!)

What about swimming?

Unlike baseball and basketball where skills stand out like hitting, catching, jump shots, free throws, etc., swimmers take stroke after stroke. In pool swimming, there are skills like starts, turns, and breakouts that can be isolated and practiced. In the open water there is sighting, drafting, and perfecting buoy turns. But the primary skill in swimming is your technique.

To deliberately practice swimming, the chunking must occur within each stroke.

Additionally, in training for open water marathon swimming, I work with my swimmers to identify each of the attributes of the swim that they need to prepare for, such as swimming through the night, beside a boat or kayak, water temperature, feed strategy, etc. Each of these components should be addressed in training.


To actualize deliberate practice in my training for Loch Ness, I thought that I would maintain focus on the SwimMastery freestyle fundamentals with the overarching theme of maintaining stroke quality while increasing tempo, in order to swim faster. But it turned out that I needed to completely let go of distance and time goals in my weekly practice and in my training swims. The process of letting go started years ago, but it would take the entire season for me to realize the extent to which these external factors take away from the experience of what is happening in each stroke.

After SCAR, I met with my coach, Tracey, and laid out my plan for the summer:

  • 20-30 minutes of deliberate practice, 2-3 times a week focusing on maintaining the fundamental skills while exploring a range of tempos
  • Build cold tolerance through weekly cold dips
  • 3 training swims to explore my skills over distance, as well as test my feed strategy.
    • A 12 hour training swim where I would endeavor (and fall short of) 26km
    • The 17km Portland Bridge Swim
    • And finally, a 10km swim at Applegate Lake
  • Tracey also recommended that I get to the open water once or twice a week for one of my practices. This happened for a few weeks at the end of May and part of June.

Practice

For several years, I have been suggesting that my swimmers let go of the pressure to complete a certain distance each week. In 2019 when I made the jump to 20+ miles swims, preparing for both Lake Tahoe and Lake Memphremagog, I focused on touching the water 3 times a week. Two practices focusing on technique and one applying that technique with a duration goal, preferably in open water. Since learning SwimMastery in 2022, I have honed my deliberate practice significantly.

I practice deliberately in my Endless Pool, focusing on the “chunks”, or aspects of my stroke that I’m trying to habitualize and applying cues to various tempos.

For feedback, I send video to Coach Tracey every few weeks so that she can check on my stroke. I’ve been swimming for more than 40 years, without focused attention on my body in the water, old habits resurface. Plus, it’s human nature. We are inherently lazy beasts and moving water is hard! It’s 800 times denser than air. With repetitive motions like swimming, it’s important to have your stroke analyzed regularly.

I also look to the water for feedback, not the clock. The clock can only tell me what happen-ed, the water tells me what’s happen-ing. I can tell when I have found the right shape with my body by the amount of pressure that I’m able to put on the water. I can also tell if I lose connection in my body because my shoulders will let me know.

My aim is to practice deliberately 2 to 3 times a week for 20 to 30 minutes. I’m working on firming up my practice times and intentions but feel like I’m at the mercy of my life sometimes. This is a big work in process for me (I think I see a light at the end of the tunnel)! But for my swims in 2023, 20-30 minutes, 2 to 3 times a week has been my mantra.

The C Word

With SCAR as an early season check in complete, and with several 20+ miles swims under my belt, I wasn’t concerned about the distance of Loch Ness. But the water isn’t in the 70F/22C’s like it is in Memphremagog. And while there’s a small chance that water temps will be Tahoe-like (if you time it just right), the air temp is another story. Plus, there’s no promise that you’ll see the Scottish sun. I wanted to understand how my body reacted to cold by thoroughly testing my cold comfort. And I wanted to have more mid swim gears as options for combating cold if it seeped in.

I stepped up my over winter swimming in 2019 after putting a deposit down with Loch Swim Alba. Without understanding the science of endothermic thermoregulation, I knew that I needed to understand how my body reacts to cooler temperatures so that I could safely swim for hours in potentially sub 60F/16C water.

In order to continuing testing my cold comfort into the warm summer months, I set out to do weekly cold dips at Vitality Health and Wellness, a local business that specializes in cryotherapy, compression, sauna, and has a cold plunge; AKA a chest freezer converted to maintain water at 41F/5C. When our local reservoir approached 50F/10C, I transitioned to cold plunging for 10 minutes, once a week. Over the course of the summer, I worked my way up to 22 minutes, a few minutes at a time. This was a huge mental challenge. I started bringing warm tea and something to read but quickly realized that I was going to need a different kind of distraction to extend the time. I tried audio books and podcasts but settled on breathwork meditations while envisioning swimming in Loch Ness. Not that I had ever been there, but the internet is full of pictures, there are stories if you seek them out, and the imagination is a beautiful thing! It was never easy and I always looked forward to it being over. I suspected I would feel the same way in the loch.

Training Swims

12 Hour Swim

The first weekend of July, some of my local swim friends and I endeavored a 12 hour swim; every hour on the hour from 6AM to 6PM. Something I recommend to any budding marathon swimmer, it’s an excellent exploration in getting comfortable being uncomfortable. Sarah Thomas first introduced me to the idea with the Cliff Ultra in 2018. This was an excellent addition to my training calendar, but it felt like I had little at stake. It wasn’t particularly cold, other than a few hours in the morning when the air was chilly. And we rested after each swim; just set off every hour on the hour. However, this was the first place where I explored letting go.

Initially I set out to do 2,000 meters each hour. Rest, repeat; every hour on the hour for 13 hours with the notion that I would put in 26,000 meters by the end of the day. After the 6am swim I saw that my watch registered 1,878 meters despite buzzing 4 times at each 500. Then again on the second swim, 1,878 meters – maybe I missed one of the 500’s? By the third swim, I was certain that it buzzed 4 times, yet it only registered a little over 1,800 meters. What was going on? It turns out that the alarm on my watch was set to activate and display my split after each 500 yards, despite the overall distance being set to display in meters. I didn’t even know this was possible! While I pushed to get the buzz each 500 and check my time, I realized I was just going through the motions. I tried to change cues each 500 but I wasn’t really present in my stroke. Not to mention that I was hardly having fun. If it’s not fun, what’s the point?

Finally, I started to let go. At noon I decided to swim with a friend who had travelled 4 hours to camp and swim with us. We swam in a different direction than I had been swimming and looked for fish! A joy that I do not usually allow myself. The pressure to get a certain number on my watch started to let up, but it was still there; I had a fleeting thought that I might be able to make up the distance later with a few longer swims.

Then I swam with my husband who was completely out of his comfort zone swimming at all, but he was doing it! Swim-hike-sit ups, every hour on the hour. I was so proud of him. Swimming by his side and being present with him, and in my stroke was a gift. I started to wonder: why am I chasing numbers on my watch in the first place? After his swim was over, I had time to play around with different gears in my stroke as I tried to catch up with friends.

I continued to set off each hour with friends in different directions exploring different arms of the lake and playing around with different qualities and tempos in my stroke. As the afternoon wore on and the number of remaining swims dwindled, my watch buzzed midswim indicating that I had knocked out another 500 yards, I glanced at it mid stroke. I was pleased to see that I was posting faster splits than I was doing first thing in the morning when I was fresh. My body felt great in the water despite being 10 hours into an all day swimming affair. It occurred to me that once I let go of my distance goal, I was able to embrace, not only the community—which was more meaningful than racking up meters – but in the process, I got to be more present in my stroke and feel into my body in the water, and play!  

Portland Bridge Swim

The following weekend was the Portland Bridge Swim. I planned to test my feed strategy which failed miserably in Lake George last year, but I also set a lofty time goal for myself because I had a few fleeting moments of speed in an open water practice. It was my 4th time swimming the 17 kilometers from Sellwood to Saint John in Portland, Oregon. This year the tide would be against us for the first 3 and a half hours, then turn and theoretically provide a little push to the finish. I wanted to finish in under 5 hours, as I did in 2013 (when the current was with us the entire way).

I set off in wave 1 and within 30 minutes found myself being passed by speedy swimmers in subsequent waves. This was quite deflating. The water was also warmer than I expected which drained my energy. My initial optimism subsided, and negative self talk ensued. I found myself plod, plod, plodding down the river, having trouble maintaining focus on any one cue. I couldn’t recall the tempos that I had been working on in my weekly practice, and I was having trouble swimming straight! I was only a few hours into the swim, and I felt frustrated.

As I passed under one of the 12 bridges along the course, I decided to roll over, backstroke, and take in the sights. I thought back to the first time I swam the course, a decade ago. So much had changed in my life, and in my swimming! The next bridge I saw Marlys, my support kayaker, with her camera out. I jumped up out of the water to see if she could catch me midair – something I did under each bridge 10 years prior on my first float down the Willamette. Finally, I started to let go of my time goal and allow the ebb and flow of my mind in each moment. I straightened out, made headway and eventually the shadow of the massive structure of the Saint John’s Bridge came over me. I rounded the final peer and made my way to the finish where I was greeted by family and friends.

Applegate 10K

My next training swim was the following weekend, a 10k at Applegate Lake. I wanted to accept exactly where I was in my training. I hadn’t hit my distance goal and missed my time goal in Portland, but I knew that there was a lot more to preparing for a long swim than distance and time markers. Among other things, we have to be present with ourselves for hours on end and we have to be able to listen to our body. I endeavored to feel good throughout the swim—at the end of the day, feeling good in my body and feeling like I can swim all day is what I want from my time in the water.

A buoy course isn’t my favorite kind of swim; I love the peace and solitude of being the only swimmer in the water. But I was surrounded by friends in my local lake and even had some of my swimmers in the water with me! I didn’t have a strategy, but I leaned into each loop, focusing on swimming straight between each buoy and holding on to my cues. After 3 hours and one minute I walked out of the water pleased with my effort.


Come mid July, my training swims were out of the way but something off. I was doing pretty well at prioritizing time in the cold plunge. If I missed a week, I forced myself to make time twice the following week. But my deliberate practice lost the purpose and focus that compelled me previously. And while each training swim played an important part in my overall plan, I felt like I was just checking boxes. In the water I was having trouble maintaining focus and it showed in my swimming. When I got video and convened with Tracey, it was clear that my old habits were sneaking back – her feedback was almost exactly what she told me at the same time last year.

If I’m honest, in the height of summer, my practices were a smattering of 5-10 minute sessions between teaching swim lessons where I tried to think about something in my swimming and not the next thing that I needed to go do. And in my training swims I had the wrong focus.

With just a few weeks left before boarding a plane to the UK, I set out to focus exclusively on my cues with a very deliberate practice. With fresh cues from Tracey, I endeavored to get in the water every single day. But I couldn’t let go of the need for speed. I closed each session trying to understand how fast I was going by counting my strokes for a minute. Then I would speed up the current in the pool and count my strokes for another minute. When I couldn’t maintain my stroke count, I warmed down and got out.

How did it go?

The plan seemed to have worked out, I swam faster than I ever have in my life for ten and a half hours. I ran up on shore, did a little dance then went on about the rest of my family vacation. But when I look at the video of my stroke, I’m appalled.

Tracey reminds me to use each swim as an opportunity to come out a better swimmer, but that wasn’t the case for me in Loch Ness. I didn’t see the expanse of water before me as my canvas for further exploring my body in the water. I saw it as a body of water that I needed to get across. While I got to the other side, I didn’t get better.

In some sense, I feel like I wasted a year trying to swim fast. In the process I got faster, but I also lost the attention to my body in the water that enabled me to continue swimming marathons in the first place. Sometimes I lose connection and my shoulder reminds me.

Speed isn’t the answer, it is the by product of a well honed deliberate practice.

I want to let go even more.

Why let go?

In a world where we are surrounded by devices and apps that help us measure everything from steps and calories to intensity minutes. And in a sport like marathon swimming where thousands of meters a week and million mile years are badges of honor, why on earth would we let go of distance and time goals in our practice?

There is no insurance.

Swimming 20 kilometers in a practice, does not guarantee that you will be able to swim a 20 kilometer event. What you need to grow is your confidence. You need to trust yourself: your mind and your body. If you exercise the principles of physics and devote each practice to making swimming as easy as possible, you will be able to swim all day (as long as you fuel your body).

There is a mental toll.

Humans are exceptional beings. We can convince ourselves to do all kinds of crazy things. But swimmers also get burnt out, bored, and quit. Some swimmers never make it to the start line. With an effective deliberate practice, your brain keeps your body engaged and your body further engages your brain. This stimulation is the path to mastery.

Get time back.

While I absolutely love swimming, I’m also trying to raise two boys in a crazy world, nourish my relationship with my partner, preserve our family unit, build a business, and foster an online community of swimmers committed to finding out what their capable of; I’ll take back any time that I can get. You can take back time too! If there’s a long swim that you want to do, you do not have to have hours a day and give up weekends to train, let’s chat.


I have found swimming akin to land based mindfulness, finding presence in each moment. This is what I endeavor in the water, presence in each stroke. Just like meditating, sometimes minutes melt into hours. Other times, it’s an eternity between each second.

This year I realized, more than ever, that excess, unfocused swimming reinforces less than optimal technique. I need to let go.

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You want me to put my hand where?

As the leaves start to fall in Southern Oregon and the crisp air lasts well into late morning before the sun shines bright to warm things up, the idea of an open water swim is less and less appealing. Where we live, it is down right hard to swim in the open water this time of year. Our local reservoirs have been busy all summer watering the orchards and the vineyards, as well as the local farms and pastures. There isn’t much water left in our local swimming hole. (But we still swim sometimes!)

So for me, without a clear goal in focus, the workouts get shorter, as just getting in the water seems like enough. And I have to remind myself that this is technique season. Not a time to abandon the water altogether, but a time to focus on my stroke and be grateful that I’m not pushing for yet more yards.

Since you asked, you want me to put my hand where? I say, shoulder width apart. And flat palm. If you started swimming in the days of the S pull (like I did!), you may have an inclination to face your palm toward the wall, this actually sets you up to sweep outside of your shoulder, which can stress your rotator cuff. So, flat palm, shoulder width apart, focus on this for your hand entry this month. Not sure how or where your hand enters the water? Send us a video of you swimming, or sign up for a technique critique session today to get a 1-2 minute video of yourself swimming from 5 different angles.

In this season where clear goals are not in focus, rest assured that the planning for 2019 has commenced, and what a season it will be!

If you’d like some training tips to get you through technique season, sign up for a private lesson or coaching session today! We can’t wait to go swimming with you!

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Walking on pins and needles

While the sun keeps shining on October, Todd and I planned another yeti swim. This time we decided to save the trip to the gorgeous, clear waters of Lake of the Woods and took a dip in our local puddle, Emigrant lake. What we hoped to be a beautiful, sunny day turned out to be overcast and threatening rain, but once you tell your training partner that you want to go swim outside and he takes time out of work in the middle of the day, you don’t say, “oh, never mind”. So we hike down, down… down to the water. As we were readiying to get in the water, I noticed a small group of people looking down on us from the RV Park above. They were in jackets and hats and huddled around a campfire. I admit, sitting around a campfire sounded pretty nice as I stood out in the cool air with just a swimsuit on, trying to motivate to get in the even colder water – boy, they must’ve thought we were nuts. Todd grabbed a quick temp to gauge the brisk factor. Thermometer read about 57 F at the edge of the shore, we found that it was closer to 55/56 F as we waded into the mud. Yep, mud. But we were not deterred, we set out to best our 40 minutes at Lake of the Woods the previous week.

We attempted to push off but found ourselves slogging through the mud until it started to drop off and it was just easier to swim. We headed for the ‘no wake’ buoy in an effort to avoid “something in the water” that we spotted before pushing off, then rounded the corner to the left, below the campground, toward the dam. The water was sorta cloudy, but it did not taste muddy like it does in August. It was refreshing and well… murky. A few times Todd started looking around and I asked if he was doing okay – a common ask when you’re swimming in sub 60 degree water – only for him to call out, “yeah, I’m fine, just hit the bottom. It was right there, but I couldn’t see it.” As we got closer to the dam, rocks lined the walls and the water seemed deeper, so I went from being concerned about hitting the dirt bottom, to being concerned about hitting a sneaky rock. I tried to relax and enjoy. Once the initial shock of the cold water passed, I’m reminded of how much I love the open water – no lanelines, no flipturns, nothing stopping me – which scares me sometimes too. “Maybe we should just go back”, “surely, we’ve been out here for an hour” – as much as I live for and thrive on open water swimming, I admit that there are times when I’m training that I have to rally myself to go any significant distance.

It’s always trippy looking up, way up, at various rocks, trees, and landmarks when the water is this low. Todd checked before we got in and the lake was reported at 6% full – yes, SIX percent. Even though it happens every year – the water goes up, the water goes down – it always gives me an apocalyptic feeling to see it, nonetheless swim in it – gah! We have no water, what are we going to do? I try to embrace the fact that we have a little bit and swim on.

We decide to head back to our starting point after about 25 minutes, but didn’t retrace our strokes. We cut across the inlet to the dam and stayed a little off shore to avoid the shallows. Coming back around to the boat ramp Todd stopped and waited for me. I peeked my head up and stopped as well. Next thing I know Todd is standing in thigh high water. So much for avoiding the shallows! We zig zagged across the boat launch area, enjoying the freedom of not having to worry about boats actually launching, and arrived back to our the muddy shore where we left our belongings at about 55 minutes. Even without the sun shining on our backs, we both felt good. Our skin was so used to the cold water that we hardly noticed that cold wind whipping up.

The walk back to Todd’s house provided a nice way to warm up, but my poor choice in footwear will not be forgotten anytime soon. I thought, hey, I’m going swimming, I’ll wear my flipflops, of course. Somehow, these nondescript bumps in my swimoutlet.com clearance sale flipflops, which usually provide nice traction and a pseudo foot massage, on frozen feet flet like I was walking on rocks, pins, needles, glass, all the sharp things! It was only an 8 min walk back to his house, but boy did it feel like forever! If you’ve ever walked on rocks with frozen feet you know how excruciating that is! Come swim with us!

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